Hope?

I was reading around, articles, stories etc. when I found this. Being very very interested in creative writing and dreaming about the day I can get something published (very, very futile dream, or so I thought...) it was so refreshing to read something like this. In our world today, there are hundreds upon hundreds of great, even brilliant authors. For aspiring ones to have that kind of talent to look up to is amazing, but also a little intimidating. You've got to admit, the market today is extremely competitive and originality can be hard to find. However, the whole point of writing is to get your thoughts and feelings across. If you give up on those then what's the point of dreaming to be published? This is exactly what this article is all about. Don't give up, because you never know when you're going to be spotted. Personally, I know how hard it is to stick with an idea, for me at least. I must have started tens of stories, fanfictions and whatnot, but I never follow through, that's my problem! It's either, 'I'm too busy' or 'This really sucks!' or something else. Well, all I can say now is that I'll try my best to stick with my ideas, no matter how long it takes.

Several issues addressed

First of all, thank you my dear head-priestess for responding to my queries. I am duely honoured to have a whole section of your blog dedicated to me. To say the least, your interesting life compensates for the lack of mine...heh...

We're moving houses. Because of our financial situation, we're moving into a smaller house for about 6 months after which I go back to Canada. However, I didn't realise how much smaller till I saw it yesterday. It's tiny! And I mean cramped tiny, not cosy tiny. The living room has a potential to be cosy once the furniture's all in and stuff, but the bedrooms have barely room for one bed each, let alone room for a bed and a study table....*sigh*...my only consolation is that it's only for 6 months AND that I'm moving closer to some of my friends (thanks for reminding me Fred...heh) which would mean stereo and ACDC benefits at his place (might I remind you that it's a dangerous offer, but oh well...) This whole thing will hopefully teach me some...humility.

One of my very good friends in Montreal, Florence, did the sweetest thing for me on my birthday! She burned a CD with pictures of my friends and loads of audio clips from them too! Which she took the time to record between all her homework and studying for exams and all! The clips are awesome! (My mom did hear you swear a bit Mel...lol...*gasp**horror*..."no, of course I've never used such a word mother! I'm horrified"...*grin*) Florence, si tu lis ça, je t'adore jusqu'au étoiles ma p'tite Floodie! I was sooo happy after I heard those clips, ç'a pas d'allure! Lol...dans quelle langue je parle?!

Apart from that, Melissa (another great friend...who's suddenly intelligent now...lol...) is writing short stories for her P.P. (stands for 'Personal Project' for all you Londoners) which I'm very proud of, since she's a great writer! Wang, you should really read some of her stuff, I'll try to show you some if she lets me. And Mel, baby, you've gotta let me beta-read for you (return the favour so to speak)! By the way, blow them away with your rockin' skills! Heard you continued your guitar lessons! Way to go!

Well, I should go too. See ya buddies!

Début vacations tirade

Wow...exams are finally over! Never thought I'd get through them, taking a lot of sciences and higher math has a very negative effect on one's neuroticism, believe me. By now, I'm used to failing, something at which I would have been reduced to tears a few months ago, something that I don't do very often, crying that is. But hey, you've gotta face up to it someday. As long as I can claim to be somewhat intelligent and intellectually impressive, I'm fine.

Yes, holidays have finally started and I'm stuck here trying to do homework. It's kinda hard trying to get into the festive spirit when you're staring at the blank page of what's supposed to be an essay. The thing is, I'm moving to a different house on New Year and before that I may be going to Vancouver for a few days, so I won't have access to the computer for a while and being the excellent student that I am, I'm trying to finish my homework before that. So, I'm really sorry guys, but I'm gonna be boring for about a week or so. No wild guy-on-guy or girl-on-girl themed parties for a while, no getting horny in math, no admittance of homosexuality, man is it gonna be boring!

Heh...can you tell I read Jenny's blog? Far from finding it sickening, beautiful, I found it hilariously interesting! How did you react when your childhood friend told you she was a lesbian? Lol...that's the kinda stuff we used to study in health class in my old school, it's great! And the horniness in math, I think you stumbled on a gold mine as far a the guys are concerned. You can take advantage of that knowledge dude...hah...don't tell Robert I said that...(:P) By the way, I seriously wanna go to a 'guy-on-guy' themed party! After all, why should the guys have all the fun with the whole lesbian thing? Promise me you'll take me when I come to Norway! Lol...I'm sure I traumatised Wang with that...

Talking about traumatised, May and I were talking about something that I realised a few days ago and I think I should put it down in writing. Our group is the most sick-minded one in the whole school. Surprised? I was too. You'd seriously think that Etienne, Phillippe, Yuji and the lot would be much less innocent-minded than the rest, but they seriously aren't. True that they're crazier in real life, but when it comes to interpreting jokes, they're so innocent! I mean they're seriously shocked whenever one of us tries our humour on them, it's amazing! They'd be terrified if they had lunch with us one day, the things we talk about! Wow, really makes us appreciate are sense of humour lol...

Ok, I've gotta go tackle a blank page. For all you writers out there who know that this is the hardest thing in the world, pity me please.

Cherrio my dahlings!

P.S.: Questionning the title entails questionning Ippy's mind...don't try it.

Loony side?

Loony side? Hah! I'm waaaay past the loony side! I've my own side now, called the Ippy side...craziness is a thing of the past on this side buddy.

Pixar, Disney...same difference (my cousin will make me pay dearly for saying that...), but as I am better acquainted with Disney, I claim that they are the geniuses!

17, with a mental age of 4

Happy birthday to meee, happy birthday to meee, happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday to meee! 17! Can you believe it? Me! 17! And worse, in a year, 18! Legal! Woohoo!!! The use of this many exclamation marks should be outlawed, but I can't help it, I'm too happy!!!

Had a party yesterday. It was really great, except for the last few hours when I felt really sick. I slept the whole time and felt sooo bad later. But hey, it wasn't my fault...Anyway, we went to see The Incredibles. It's an awesome movie! Amazing, great, anything you want! Disney is getting better and better at this subtle adult humour thing which makes them geniuses! I loffed it! I want a family like that, seriously! Afterwards, we just came back to Mehreen's house and chilled (me sleeping for the entire time!). But me feeling sick just seemed to give the others incentive to torture me! I mean come on! You don't beat up a sleeping girl with a fish! Who does that? And it got worse when the guys started molesting it. It was bad enough that it was a fish, but the fact that it was Nemo just drew the line. After a while I just gave up and tried to ignore the crazy people (which wasn't easy since there were a LOT of them...)

I got a lot of presents! Great ones! The Laughing Corpse (Anita Blake) by Laurell K. Hamilton, signed!! Back in Black, ACDC!!! A chocolate fondue making thing, which I have to try very very soon! A very pretty photo frame and a beautiful bracelet, a shirt, a sports armband and...a box of tea, which was the strangest gift I have ever gotten, not bad at all, but weird...Anyway, still waiting for a few more...*rubs hands together*

And now, even though it's me real birthday, I gotta go do my homework. Suckiest thing in the world!

Contradiction

The dedication is much more subtle in my case. I stay away from an addiction for a while so that it all seems new again. Isn't that neat? I sound like I'm drunk...or on drugs...

This week has been one of the worst of my life! And it's still Thursday! Eleven and a half hours to go before Friday works its magic. Jenny's coming! My dirty brain needs something of a warm-up before seeing her though. I feel as if I won't be able to catch up. Wow...what I've just written makes no sense, but I'm way too lazy to modify anything. There's something seriously wrong with me. But, the fact stays, my second head-lover (head-lover...teehee) arrives tonight at 10.30. I've got to be considerate enough to call her. Must not fall asleep! A whole weekend of pure not caringness...finally! I've been waiting months for this. Hopefully nothing will ruin it.

Got my report card today. Got a C for math...can you believe it?! For now, I'm way past caring if I sound stuck-up, I've never gotten a C for math! It was my safe subject! It was the one thing I could rely on to make myself and my parents happy. A C is like Armaggeddon (I may have put a 'g' too many... :P). I feel weird. It's not my parents or anything, it's just that I know it's not the end of the world, but I feel too bad for not meeting my expectations. Stupid those... I mean what's the point of sayin, "I'm in Higher Math" if you're not good at it? And now my mom wants me to go talk to the teacher to ask him about a particular test I was supposed to retake, but never got the chance to. So, no way can I forget about the first quarter and move on...wha ev...

I still retain my title of 'Natural Genius' thank you. I have this need for success that's driving me insane! Stupid standards...we should revert back to our natural past and instincts then, tests or grades won't matter! They still don't, it's just that we make them...therefore, stupid humans...

Wha ev...

Gaaah...

This has to be really quick, because I've gotta go do my Physics and Chemistry homeworks. So, I'm just gonna say hi and bye. I know people who hang on to every word I say/write will be disappointed, but what can I say, das ist life (German-speakers, give me a break...) at least I'm dedicated!

And thanks Wang for the linkie. Like he says, it's a fatal mistake not to read that story. I could tell you about so many other fanfictions, but not now. I will when I have time.

P.S.

By the way, go read "Amazing Bouncing Rat" by Maya. It's hilarious! I'm too lazy to give the link right now, but you'll find it anywhere online. Just google it.

P.P.S.: May and Jenny, if you're reading this, you know I live my lives through you...just thought I'd state that vis à vis Jenny's new romantic liaisons...

Oh man...

Oh boy, can't believe I haven't updated in over 10 days! I've been sooo busy that I'm emotionally exhausted right now. I can't get my brain in order...*sigh*...

Ok, first things first. Brother's birthday. He's 12 now and almost 5 mentally. Woopedidoo...thinks he's immortal now that it's his birthday...we'll see about that!

This whole week I was doing something called CAS, it's obligatory if you do the IB Diploma. Basically it's community service, but you also have to get hours for action and creativity. So, I went to a skills development centre for disabled adults about 20 minutes from my house. I went there and assisted the teachers with their sessions (art, music, cooking etc.), from 9 to 3.30, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. It was a great experience, but emtionally, very taxing. On top of that, Saturday, I had to go to this horseriding place for disabled people to help out for 2 hours. Oh man, compared to CMSS (the skills dev. centre) this thing was soooo boring! All you did was walk with a horse! I almost fell asleep! And now, I'm drained...I had a lotta homework to do and I didn't have time to finish it all. At least I think it's a lot. See? I can't even get my head around how much hw I had! *sigh*...

I have a creative writing piece for English where I have to rewrite a fairytale. It's awesome! Creative writing is my life! I could do it forever! And somehow, I can't get myself to finish this one. It's pathetic really, but what can a girl do? I'm rewriting Sleeping Beauty btw, telling it from the prince's p.o.v. It should be interesting since the prince's character is similar to that of Draco in Maya's 'Draco Malfoy, Amazing Bouncing...Rat'. I'm really enjoying developing his character, but I have no inspiration whatsoever for the plot itself. It's due Tuesday. I need a motivational wave, or some really good sucking up lines till then...oy vei...

Boo ya!

I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! Think I said it enough? I don't think so! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio!

We called McGill, found out that you needed any TWO of the sciences as far as the IB Diploma was concerned for Pre-Med. So...I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! I'm dropping bio! After this rather...uh...exuberant statement, I don't think I'll be able to survive medecine. I mean if I dislike bio so much...I don't hate it...It's just the teacher. I can't wait to go to school tomorrow and announce it to him! In your face Mr. Hamkari! Mwahahaha! Now I can concentrate on Physics. Which I happen to love. You know what? I'll become an astrophysicist. Yeah, that's what I'll do! I'll become an astrophysicist, invent the time machine, win the Nobel Physics prize and become a millionaire. Show Hawking a thing or two about Physics...lol :P I would love to meet the man though! It's on my things-to-do list. A pretty sad list you might say...say it again when I'm a millionaire and rule the world! Mwahahahahah!

Death of a Hero

Before I forget, I'd like to say how sorry I was when I heard about Christopher Reeves. He was only 52 and ever the optimist! He gave immense hope to a lot of people and for that I'm sure most people recognize him. That and being the greatest Superman ever! He will definitely be missed.

Rendez-vous with Rama...

I'm sitting in the library, staring at this book title. Isn't it weird? Wonder whether it refers to Ram, the Hindu god? Maybe I should read it, but frankly the cover is so boring, I don't wanna pick it up. To hell with not judging a book by its cover. That saying doesn't work anyway...or maybe it does, or maybe I'm ranting, as always...

My school life is getting so complicated right now! I'm doing the IB diploma and they only provide for two sciences. I, being the stupid, brilliant girl that I am, decided to take on three, and I swear the bio teacher resents me taking three! Bio and physics are in the same block so for a week or two a had this strange 50/50 arrangement and everytime I went to physics instead of bio, the teacher would shake his head at me everytime he saw me! That's called juvenile pressuring in my book! He's supposed to help me, not hold a grudge against me! Whatever...the worst thing of all is that I have no time to read fanfics! I'm having a nervous breakdown...a very calm nervous breakdown...fanfics are a drug and I haven't had a fix in a long time. I did check out this LJ that did an inventory of pottersues. It's hilarious and so true! I mean, I'm all for the open-mindedness, but with all the crap going on in my life, I needed to...bitch a little.

Anyway, I've run out incentive right now, I'll write more when the enthusiasm comes back. Until then...cheerio...

Choices, choices...

Choosing templates is so much harder than it looks! Hmm...I think I like this one...

First is the worst, second is the best, third is the fat lady who sings...

It's true you know, first trials of everything are always the worst. Take this post for example...can you be any more lethargic? This is more of a test run any way.

What is also true is that Blogger is definately better than LiveJournal (no bashing intended), just thought I'd state it since, I opened an account in LJ less than an hour ago. That's gotta be some sort of record.

Anyway, life is boring, tomorrow is Monday...blah blah blah...it's all very depressing. What's also depressing is that I haven't finished my bio essay. Okay, I ve finished it but I could have...tweaked it a bit more. I hate to be the perfectionnist, but that, for me, is crap...the essay I mean. Don't you hate it when you have to write about something you don't give a damn about? I mean who cares if water has miraculous properties, it's there, we drink it, we die without it. Period. You don't need an essay to know that. Plus, it's more chemistry than biology anyway, so what is the point I ask?...Yeah...depressing....when you can find this much to say about biology...*sigh*