The dedication is much more subtle in my case. I stay away from an addiction for a while so that it all seems new again. Isn't that neat? I sound like I'm drunk...or on drugs...
This week has been one of the worst of my life! And it's still Thursday! Eleven and a half hours to go before Friday works its magic. Jenny's coming! My dirty brain needs something of a warm-up before seeing her though. I feel as if I won't be able to catch up. Wow...what I've just written makes no sense, but I'm way too lazy to modify anything. There's something seriously wrong with me. But, the fact stays, my second head-lover (head-lover...teehee) arrives tonight at 10.30. I've got to be considerate enough to call her. Must not fall asleep! A whole weekend of pure not caringness...finally! I've been waiting months for this. Hopefully nothing will ruin it.
Got my report card today. Got a C for math...can you believe it?! For now, I'm way past caring if I sound stuck-up, I've never gotten a C for math! It was my safe subject! It was the one thing I could rely on to make myself and my parents happy. A C is like Armaggeddon (I may have put a 'g' too many... :P). I feel weird. It's not my parents or anything, it's just that I know it's not the end of the world, but I feel too bad for not meeting my expectations. Stupid those... I mean what's the point of sayin, "I'm in Higher Math" if you're not good at it? And now my mom wants me to go talk to the teacher to ask him about a particular test I was supposed to retake, but never got the chance to. So, no way can I forget about the first quarter and move on...wha ev...
I still retain my title of 'Natural Genius' thank you. I have this need for success that's driving me insane! Stupid standards...we should revert back to our natural past and instincts then, tests or grades won't matter! They still don't, it's just that we make them...therefore, stupid humans...
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